God,

I am wondering what happened to me?

What do you mean?

I can hardly see myself or I should say the self I enjoy seeing.

Go on.

I have lost the brave, bold, daring, try anything me. I have lost the me that was confident enough to send 15 publishers proposal out into the world and play the waiting game. I know it sounds strange but in the “yes!” that came from having the idea picked up I lost some piece of me.

Keep going.

There are raging fears that kick in now. Fear of failure, fear of disappointment, fear of not being good enough, fear of not meeting my own expectations.

You know those are from you and not of me.

I know. It makes me sad. I feel like I am wasting so much time.

Why are you letting things of the world hold you captive? Why are you burying things I have for you?

I don’t know. I wish I knew.

You know what My Word says? You know I can help you through the fears. You know that you possess the bravery of Mary, Esther, Ruth, and so many more that have come before you. You know I have a plan for you…it is ready and waiting for you to travel down. Choose to move forward knowing that what is behind you is only there to support you.

I hear you God.

You have been bold and you are bold.

You have been brave and you are brave.

You have been confident and you are confident.

You have dreams live them.

You have been creative and you are creative.

Don’t let this world claim you. Claim ME and we will write together.

Thanks for the chat. I needed it. Ready to wake up with a new spirit about me.

Amen.

P.S.- When I was fifteen I began dreaming of getting to ride in a hot air balloon. The photo  above is from that dream coming true at the age 39! Woo hoo!